So yesterday I was giving advice on being aware of the strong emotions that can accompany an open marriage. Today I am in the throes of them. I know that love does not have limit, that loving another does not take away from the love that is given to me - in quantity or quality. That the love given to me was here before this other person and will be here long after they have moved on. But through all of that intelligent rational, the heart feels what the heart feels, and today I am hurting knowing my husband is falling in love with another and that love is reciprocated.
It's amazing how easy it is to be okay with sharing your spouse in the physical sense, but once emotions of love enter the picture suddenly like starting all over.
Deep breath. In, out. In, out.
"Jealousy is indeed a poor medium to secure love, but it is a secure medium to destroy one's self-respect. For jealous people, like dope-fiends, stoop to the lowest level and in the end inspire only disgust and loathing."Emma Goldman
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